Cheerful Mind

How i feel when i am 19 years old! (^^)

2006-09-30T01:46:00.000-07:00

Haha, finally 19 leh. Thanks to all my friends who actually celebrate. I was surprise when my friends meet together and celebrate for me. I get to see many of my old friends who i never seen in months and even years.

[Sharing how i feel when striking 928 at exactly 12 am]
When the clock strike 12 and reach september 28. I have the weirdest feeling i have in my life and i feel very emotional. I was filled with a mixtures of sadness and happiness in my heart.

[Poem written by me to describe this mixtures of sadness and happiness]
Refer to the firework picture

The fireworks
Different colours symbolise different feeling,
Different lights symbolise different hopes,
Lights and colours filled around the dark sky,
Seeking for the dreams that can be fufilled,

Travelling through time as age passes,
reaching toward the destination of my mind,
Dreams scatter when the colours fade away,
Sorrowness reach in my heart,
As darkness bind the hopes and dreams that once cherished,

Happiness may come when the light is brighten,
Sadness may come when the colour fade,
Time passes as ages go,
Gain some,
lost some,
For I will stand and fight.

My problems are studies, relationship that is so hard to explain, my dreams to become a game designers and how i become a better person.

My wish: To solve all my problems and become a more mature person.

Haha, feel so emotional to write this peom.

Anyway on my bday itself, i was spenting with my friends learning guitar at his house. I was quite enjoyable as i finally can play my chords well without any difficulties. I have not seen for some times haha. It may seen that i do not have any celebration on that day but it just happen that i celebrate mine on 27 already. Haha, the number of celebrations are about 3. One of my friend ask me to playing World of Warcraft and even pass me 30 bucks to purchase the cd itself. He and another friend of mine also treat me a big "stingray" meal at clementi and even buy me a expensive earphone for me. I also receive a celebration at 929 where my another group of friends went to eat. I quite touch when they buy a gift for me. A stylish wallet i can say. I quite paiseh when they treat me so good. Haha, i feel so guilty. I must tell myself to become a better person and a less selffish person. I have this bad habit "misjudging". I trying my best to remove this habit of mine. My sisters also buy me gifts, a cool sunglasses and a cool and stylish bag i can say haha. I also wanna thank my friends who wish me Happy Birthday. They have the heart and sincerity that make me so touch.

What i wanna achieve in 19 years old and above...
1. Get good results!
2. Find my true love if i have the fate
3. Breaking my bad habits
4. Have courages to handle things especially when come with relationship
5. Never misjudge people
6. Can cope the stress!

Haha, i think i will write until here. Cya guys. Stay cool!
Gonna go...

Express more of myself, dun stay too secretive.

2006-09-21T10:52:00.000-07:00

Recently, i receive a lot of feedbacks that my blog shoudl change into another type of blog. A blog that express my feelings over myself. Cux i heard many friends dun really udnerstand me. I also admit that my character is quite secretive. Well, it a break through if i express more myself more and seek new hope. Hope u guys support me. Will be updating more soon so stay tuned. Recently busy in projects. Haha. Express. Express more, Express more and more haha.!! =D

A game of Risk? OR A game of love?

2006-09-15T02:51:00.000-07:00

Yo, sry for the late update =>. Wanna have a game of risk? Do u dare to make a risk. Haha, well it up to wat u thinking and how u cope with all yr soldiers. It just like our daily life fighting against different problems. We encounter some, we lost some, we gain some. All this actually accumulate experiences and make your life more meaningful. If u have not play Risk before, y not have a try on it. It quite addicted sometimes when i play with my friends. During free time, I will meet my friends that live nearby me. ( 1 traffic road away only) and go someone house to play overnight Risk. It a game worth thinking and actually reflect our life. But then someone may ask me. How about relationship, it is impossible to solve from a game of Risk ( Haha). Relationship is something that i really dunno how to describe. It all fate i can say. Everyone have their own red line already. But i believe experiences over love are more pain than other things. It seen that i have this problem too ha but then think of the bright side of life. There is also a solution to solve a problem. No matter how bad the situation is, u must not feel down. Cheerfulness will be a key to make you stand up and face the reality. Ha. Oh well, i will feel confuse especially come to relationship. Sometimes u need to be brave when encounter such things. I can understand the pain of love is really hurts ><. But never give up. Just live fullest on yr life and u nv regret. Stay tuned for more update =D

Caught in the "Sentosa storm"

2006-09-01T20:38:00.000-07:00

Hi guys, i call this paticular week as "Sentosa week". Basically, i going to sentosa at least 4 times. A bit scarely -_-'. On the third trip to sentosa, my friends and I were caught in a storm at the Padawan beach "Twin Towers". My friends and I reached the third or fourth floor of the tower. Suddenly, strong "gust" of wind blow toward us along with the rain. It was quite excited at that moment. Lucky i bring extra t-shirt during that time. The rain and the wind is so strong that we hardly visualise the outside scenery of sentosa. In fact, we were a bit crazy i guess. Playing poker cards during such a heavy rain. Can u imagine the cards were all wet. We are just "wet ducks". Then one of my friend a bit siao, bring a bottle of Johnny Walker to drink especially at that moment. Because of all this incidents make me remember deeply what happen that day.
But then when i recalled that particular trip. It quite fun. Cya and stay tuned.

Foundation of Maya? Stress over modelling and texturing ><

2006-08-29T16:35:00.000-07:00

Hi. Hai, feel quite stress today. I trying to learn Maya a 3d graphic rendering and modelling software. It quite hard if u don't understand the function of each configuration. But In fact, if the person that have the heart to learn. It is possible to master to the extend only profesionals can compete with you. I was trying to create a kicking leg but i fail. Instead i create a deform kicking leg sort of like "Alien" or "monster" leg ha. If you guys interested in graphic, just go library borrow a tutorial book and study. Although this require a lot of patient but i think it worth it =D. Anyway i heard Jay Chou album is coming up. sort of excited. Mainly because i use to be Jay Fan. Ha. Anyway, jia you on what you like. I try to show more wonderful art works compare to this. Haha, so stay tuned and cya.

Back for Blogging - Stay cool and be yourself.

2006-08-28T23:06:00.000-07:00

Hey! I back man. Sry for the short period of inactive haha. I was quite busy with my projects for the coming competitions ><. Anyway, recently i designing a new layout for my blog to look cool ha. It going to take me sometime but for the time period, all u need to do is = wait. This past few days, i went out with my good friends and go to Orchard to take a look. Well, i intended to go Fast East to buy some cool Shirts but it seen that some of the store have already close. Such a disappointment man.. ><. Then my friends ask me go club [but i dun feel like going cux clubbing sometimes very sian one zzz]. I tell them i wearing sandle [This give me another alternative path = going home] :P. But it seen they cancel the clubbing idea and pei me walk around Orchard. Then when i get back, it already 1 + a.m already. I can't sleep and i don't know why. haha. I turn on my com and start to research on graphics. My interest is always on graphics. My skill improve a lot recently especially this today to be precise. I looking forward for the coming fun activites that my friend jio me => Happy life ma? I also not sure but there one thing i know. You should be very passionate over things you like and try to be more sociable. This actually make u a happy person in some ways. Well, cya soon will update next time=> stay tuned.

Studying in process

2006-08-17T00:16:00.000-07:00

Haha, i study so hard that i nearly forget my lunch. But things get better. I notice when you solve a problem in the past year exam paper, your confidence improve by a little. =) Haha, but i feel very bore. Study is boring afterall ha. I desperately wanted my exam ended quickly and take part in all sort of activities. Just a couples more days before the exam and i free like a bird flying freely toward the sky. My friend call me whether if i wanna study together with him together at school but it seen i quite lazy ha. I hope my friends are now struggling in their revisions and score well in their exams. The most important is to stay relax and cheerful. The key to victory will come to you slowly. It depend how a person walk his path of journey. Amazingly, i notice that listening to rock songs while studying is consider not bad afterall ha. Of course, many of my friends say it distracting but i found it ok. Well, different people have different opinions. Jia you! Everyone! Strive hard to reach your victory destination. Strive for a better and brighter day for tomorrow. Oh ya, anyone interested in space. yesterdat i visit the NASA website and check it out. There are many interesting facts and learn some of them. It quite interesting. If you guys have space, go take a look at their websites. Cya soon.

Feeling so empty and seeking back "me"

2006-08-16T11:12:00.000-07:00

I feel so empty recently. The worst is i couldn't identify the problems that make me feel so empty. I feel that everyday of my life is meaningless. This is the only unhappiness i have in my heart. But i have never break down as i always think there will be a brighter day. I am born with a determine and cheerful mind. My religous also strengthen me a lot ha. I tell myself i shall find something meaningful and involve in it. Recently, i take part in the Future Divison concert to perform Stomp, i think i have learn a lot in term of experience and know more new friends. My emptyness in heart started to disappear. It was during the concert, i started to feel very passionate and filled with endless joy. I enjoy playing hitting the bottle [my instrument]. Everyone in the concert are very friendly and kind, I feel very impress and touch by their cheerful actions. Haha, that part of my sweet memories recently. Anyway, exam is coming and i not well-prepare. I have worry over my exam afterall. Haha, but i believe i can do it! That the spirit i have gain from my friends who have shown me recently on different occasions. I keep forcing myself to study despite disliking my subjects ha. In the end, i manage to success 50%. In fact, i like to do things such as drawing, graphic designing, singing and playing instruments. Well, i still have around 1 week to struggle before my exam. No matter what, i must force myself on the battlefield and win the war through wisdom and determination.